Growing up in a Christian home has influenced my life in many ways, God's perfect calling being the biggest one. Throughout my life there has been a HUGE emphasis placed on God's calling for my life. What is he asking me to do? What was I created to do? And let me tell you, I… Continue reading The Uncalled
I do not stand with the majority of believers who push religious law on others and have a tight grip on their guns. I stand with the outcasts.
The gym parking lot was filling up as we arrived, and after I put my car into park the excitement in my veins turned to anxiety in my chest. What the crap am I doing here?
I can argue no longer. I have tried time and time again to convince those around me to love each other, to care for each other, to respect each other, but my words have fallen short. My ideals and expectations of this world are unattainable, yet I continue to strive for more. How can we… Continue reading I can argue no longer
For me, weight loss has been a road to loneliness, and what makes it worse is the fact that I was on that road to begin with.
If you have been following my updates at all, then you know that I have been doing pretty well with my weight loss. In fact, I recently got food poisoning and dropped 4 pounds in a day and a half. BOOM! Following that sickness, I went on a trip with my youth group, and didn’t… Continue reading Call in the public shamers, I fell off the wagon.
You see, this time is different. I am not losing weight to please a boyfriend, or to gain a boyfriend. I am not losing weight to look better in Instagram photos, and I am not losing weight to please my boss... I am losing weight because I love myself and I know that I deserve better than what I have given myself for 26 years.
My whole life I have struggled with finding approval from others. In elementary school I can remember wanting so badly to be liked by my teachers. I constantly sought after their validation by working hard on my school work. I would be overwhelmed with anxiety when my teachers would walk by my desk checking on… Continue reading Hi, I’m selfish.
Is it possible to walk down the wrong road and never merge with the right one? Do we get one chance to follow Gods path for us or is it a never ending cycle of chances to do his will? These questions keep me up at night.